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Text; After breakfast when home alone.

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[After his brothers are gone and it's just them in the house again. Damin picks up his device, because he remembers what Jon said about personal space and might be trying not to barge into the boy’s room as much anymore.]

Are you awake?

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[ After a few minutes. ]

You can knock on the door, y'know.

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I felt asking this way would eliminate complaints for more personal space.

[But instead you find new ones. So picky Jon.]

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There's a difference between breaking in and knocking.

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I know.
Had I broken in, I'd of seen you were awake and this conversation would have progressed much faster.

[Lesson learned.]

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I'm not sure that logic works.

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Point is you’re awake and we should talk.

Are you upset about Todd and Drake? You were very quiet at breakfast.

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It's not their fault.

I'm just tired of having this conversation over and over again.

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I don't remember having it. So tell me what's wrong, Jon.

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It's not you, it's just — So many people have come by and said the same thing. And they left too.

Everyone keeps leaving.

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People do that.

[Anything else he could think of saying on the subject would likely just make Jon feel worse. This is really why he chose to text. With texting it made him stop and think, but he couldn't see Jon so he couldn't judge if his words were hurting his feelings again or not.]


I'm back though.
So they might come back too.
But if not, it'll be okay, because I'm here and I've got your back, Jon.

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Thanks, Damian.

I know they didn't mean to. And everyone's trying to help. It just feels really hard right now to believe it.

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[Problem with texting is he couldn’t read Jon's expressions or mannerisms.]

So the next time someone does? Tell them to "Shut up, unless you mean it.”

Or since it's you throw a “Please shut up” in there.

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They mean well.

I'm just kinda tired of it.

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If you don’t speak up, nothing will change.

[This takes a bit, but finally comes in after a few minutes.]

I don’t like seeing you sad, Jon.

Is me staying here making you more upset?

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[ A pause. ]

Things are better now that you're here. I'm glad you're here.

I'll try and speak up more often.

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Are you?
I know you're sad about people letting you down.
It just feels like I'm on that list.

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[ Jon falters. He doesn't blame Damian or anyone else for that matter. Intellectually he knows the way things played out was beyond anyone's ability to circumvent. And yet — And yet there was a corner of hurt in his heart. He doesn't know what to do with it, he doesn't know how to fix it. ]

It's stupid. You shouldn't be.

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[He frowns at the message. His hunch was right then...]

And yet I am. What happened Jon?
If I did something, then speak up and tell me.

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You promised you'd stay. When my dad left, you promised.

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[Damian falters at that message. He made that promise and left...? Left after Jon's dad abandoned him? He doesn't really know how to answer that, but can practically feel how upset Jon might be getting through the text.

Was Jon mad at him all this time then?]

So you ARE angry with me.

[He doesn't really give Jon time to answer though as he's entering the boy's room.]

Tell me off then.

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[ Jon cringes as he sits up, clutching his device and wiping his face with his sleeve. ]

No. I'm not gonna do that. I'm not mad.

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[Even worse, Jon was crying. He'd rather Jon be angry.]

I broke a promise and abandoned you.

[He says bluntly, trying to get Jon angry. It was far easier to deal with than sadness.]

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[ His fingers tighten over his device, cracking it slightly. ]

You didn't do it on purpose. You didn't mean to. That's the thing. No one meant to hurt me, it just — it just happened that way.

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How do you know?

[Did he tell Jon something before he left? This not remembering was so frustrating. He hears the device cracking in Jon's hold. How long had Jon been holding back?

...Keep pushing...]

You trusted me. I said I'd be there. [Why?!Why did he do that... Even he was getting angry just thinking about it.]

Then, I forgot it all. This place. My promise... I abandoned you, twice.